Anyways...this coming week, from Tuesday to Sunday, I'm on my own. I won't be able to work out with Jessica at all during that time. I think I've mentioned before that my personal motivation is somewhat less than stellar. Well...now I've got a week of nothing but personal motivation to keep me going.
This should be interesting.
I mean, don't get me wrong, I love to work out. I love pushing my limits and proving people wrong, but therein lies my problem: I have to be competing. I can't "compete" against myself. Trust me, I've tried. It doesn't work. I need someone, just a few steps ahead of me, taunting me (not literally), egging me on, daring me to go faster to pass them. I (unfortunately) need some completely innocent bystander to be the target of my stubborn anger. I know this sounds overly dramatic, but it's true. I need to be able to convince myself that I have something to prove, and when I'm by myself, this is incredibly difficult.
Tomorrow is a double day, so I have to run and bike all on my own. Sigh...wish me luck.